Yes, it has been a very long time since posting anything. I have kept myself busy with stupid viral videos, NetFlix, Facebook, and any other distraction. I thought I dealt with grief, but I ignored it. I ignored grief as long as possible. I have amazing kids. Children are my life. Especially after losing my baby.
They grow up. I can't be their "everything" I tried. But I have failed. I don't know what comes next. I love them. I'm so sorry, if I haven't lived up to that.
