july
Today marks ten years that July has been and will be the best and worst month of my life.
Keegan will be ten years old on July 19. The Good Lord knows how much I miss him. I don’t think I could put into words the swirl of emotions that it is to place a child for adoption. Birthing Keegan changed the course of my life forever. In his birth I learned what God had put me on this earth to do, I would be a mother and I would become a midwife. July marks the month that my life changed forever. My husband and I journeyed through personal hell that made us a couple stronger than any mortal bond. Fast forward 8 years and we were welcoming our fourth child into the world July 15, 2009. She was amazing. We celebrated Keegan’s 8th birthday as a family of 4. I wish I had taken pictures. Why didn’t I take more pictures?! On July 25, 2009 our baby girl died. Who I was as a person died with her. I was more broken than I had ever thought possible.
Fast forward a year, we celebrated Story’s first birthday with a gorgeous butterfly release and a family celebration … I was also in labor. Chapel was born July 17, 2010.
All that being said, it is July.
There are so many emotions in this month … what is a girl to do?
Pray a lot. That's all we can do. I will be praying for you, girl. I can't even imagine.
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